“I just want to be uncontrollable,” Ventura wrote in a message to Combs. 

The defense then began reviewing how Ventura met Combs through a producer, and started to detail how the sexual history between the two began. 

Ventura giggled on the stand as she read a 2007 message she wrote before the message was read to the jury. Ventura said she was giggling because the message was from 2007. 

We only had one week together and it’s been the best and worst, Ventura wrote in the message. I’ve never felt so safe and loved. I feel protected in your arms. You’re one of the sweetest most sincere people. Grateful you’ve chosen to be part of my life. 

“Who knew I’d fall so fast,” Ventura wrote. 

The message went on to say Combs might be weary of her, and she might be being sneaky. 

Ventura referenced being called a spoiled brat, dramatic, and disrespectful. She wondered if a friend of hers might be better for Combs, and that she might make more sense for him. 

“I’m hurt you think I’m a malicious person,” Ventura wrote. She added she felt sad Combs didn’t feel like she’s the right one, and that she really does love him, and that he’s very important to her. 

Ventura was asked about the “sneaky” remark, and whether it referred to her cheating on her then-boyfriend with Combs. Ventura said that could be. Asked whether she thought Combs had an attraction for her friend, Ventura said there was a point in the beginning, but she doesn’t remember ever talking about it.